maristu

...and was slightly disturbed by the results:

Mariana, your unconscious mind is driven most by Resistance

You approach the world with your guard intact because unconsciously, and perhaps consciously, you want to maintain an element of control in your relationships with people. You tend to hold much of what is in your unconscious mind just out of reach of others. You're not one to immediately show all your cards, to let people into who you really are until you're ready.

Unfortunately, that sometimes means you also hide things from yourself. You may find that your desire to remain guarded backfires, affecting your self-awareness. Why are you like this? It's possible that you act in this manner because of a deeply-rooted fear of being exposed, or of truly expressing yourself. To protect yourself from this fear, you act in the opposite manner — you are guarded.

There is a certain respect that comes with resistance, an unconscious understanding that the human psyche is very vulnerable. We all feel we have a lot to hide, and you are not one to be intrusive or thoughtless about how you approach sensitive topics with others. Therefore you inspire a sense of safety in others when they are around you. Your psyche is very deep, very rich, and the more you can let yourself know (both the good and the bad), the more you will be able to appreciate who you really are.

First reaction was, "Hell no! That's all wrong!" But... It's really not. I am a guarded person. Telling fact: I didn't want to put the results up in my journal. If that's not guarded, I don't know what is *g*

I don't remember being like this when I was younger, though. I was a pretty easy going kid, and I've never been exactly shy. I wonder if I changed, or if I just never realized that I was this way. Come to think of it, there are very very few people that I've ever opened up to. So yeah, maybe I've always been like this...

And then there's that little voice in my head that tells me that I shouldn't pay that much attention to a test I took over the Internet :P

Because of something nerodi mentioned in her LJ, I retook the What Breed of Dog Are You? test over at emode. And yes, I'm still a Bernese Mountain Dog.

I just got an email from emode, with the following:

Mariana, you're a Bernese Mountain Dog!
Did you know?
73% of Bernese Mountain Dogs party in jeans and a t-shirt; 11% party in leather.

Heh. I have this image of dogs in leather that I can't get out of my head :P I'm in the 73%, I'm all for jeans and t-shirt (in fact, that's what I'm wearing now). These tests are sometimes creepily accurate :P

Gotta go to bed, but I don't feel the least bit sleepy. Darn. First day of work tomorrow! And I'm nervous. Really nervous. Gah.

Ganked from everyone. Googlism is waaaaay too much fun :)

mariana is not married to his father (um, as far as I know, hubby has no children)
mariana is holding a present (I am! *waves to slodwick*)
mariana is too high
mariana is the story of a remarkable woman
mariana is easily remembered by others (*blush* Thanks guys!)
mariana is $1 (I'm cheap!)
mariana is gezien makelij (huh?)
mariana is mentioned
mariana is not cared for (*sob*)
mariana is a creative person
mariana is present
mariana is pure (lmao!)
mariana is happy (actually, I am!)
mariana is an excellent writer (um, no.)
mariana is a wonderful heroine
mariana is on the right (depends on your perspective, really)
mariana is a smart (and I really don't wanna hear the rest of that sentence. I'm fine with where it stopped.)
mariana is fairly well constrained
mariana is a tall (a tall what? Midget? 'Cause, you know, I'm kinda short.)
mariana is a 26 years old (how do they *know*?? Um, actually, not for a few more months, but still. Freakishly close.)
mariana is no longer a physical one

And my absolute favorite...

mariana is a perfect miss bikini world 2001 and we are looking forward to working with her during her year of reign

Heh. Hehehehe. *dies laughing*

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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Oh, Legolas! Um, yes, I'd like me some of that ;)

Ok, who's gonna make me LOTR icons? Huh? Pleeeeeease?? I'll give you a vid in return... ;)

This is my first meme. I've never really been inclined to do any before, but you know, I'm a music junkie... This one was just *begging* me to do it. So I did :)

I wanted to use Frank Sinatra, but the anal-retentive inside me was whining that Frank is not only *not* a band, but actually an interpreter (as in, he has no songs of his own), so that wouldn't be really fair. So I used The Beatles instead.

Here goes...

Are you male or female?
She's a woman who understands
She's a woman who loves her man

Describe yourself.
...And I'm not what I appear to be
Although I laugh and I act like a clown
Beneath this mask I am wearing a frown
My tears are falling like rain from the sky

How do they feel about you?
Day after day, alone on the hill
The man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still
But nobody wants to know him
They can see that he's just a fool
As he never gives an answer
But the fool on the hill
Sees the sun going down
And the eyes in his head
See the world spinning round

How do you feel about yourself?
Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend.
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play?
Dear Prudence, greet the brand new day
The sun is up, the sky is blue
It's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence, won't you come out to play?

He's actually a guy, but he's, um, prudent :) And he doesn't come out to play much.

What would you rather be doing?
When I wake up early in the morning
Lift my head, I'm still yawning
When I'm in the middle of a dream
Stay in bed, float upstream
Please don't wake me, no don't shake me
Leave me where I am, I'm only sleeping

Hey, I did this at 4am in the morning...

Describe where you live
There is a place
Where I can go
When I feel low
When I feel blue
And it's my mind
And there's no time when I'm alone

In my mind there's no sorrow
Don't you know that it's so
There'll be no sad tomorrow
Don't you know that it's so

Describe how you love
I want her everywhere
And if she's beside me I know I need never care
But to love her is to need her everywhere
Knowing that love is to share
Each one believing that love never dies
Watching her eyes
And hoping I'm always there

You have to switch the gender here :)

Share a few words of wisdom
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom
Let it be

This was uncannily insightful... I liked this meme. Make more!

Which ridiculously attractive model are you?
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Which woman of Shakespeare are you?
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Alright, enough with the innocence and sweetness already! Sheesh. You'd think I'm a nun or something.

Which Harry Potter Marauder Are You?

Behind that calm, composed outer exterior lies mystery or secrecy. You have trouble at times opening up to others, but once you do, you have friends for life. You are very intelligent and enjoy casual pasttimes such as reading, writing or drawing.
Yay! I'm Moony! My favorite character in HP... Wonder if he'll come back?

So, seeing as everyone's trying to figure out what kind of weirdo they are, I decided to take the test...





what sort of weirdo are you?

this quiz by belle

I'm no fun... :( I wanna be weird! What do I have to do to be weird???