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Day 3 - In your own space, share a favorite piece of original canon (a TV episode, a song, a favorite interview, a book, a scene from a movie, etc) and explain why you love it so much. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Well. I have no idea if this is the kind of thing that I'm supposed to be posting, and everyone has (probably) already watched this multiple times in the past years, but it's my absolute favorite performance and makes me happy whenever I see it flying around on tumblr or here.

I present to you: Tom Holland's lipsync battle.

You know how you always feel like life will be slightly calmer once all the holidays are over and you're back to your routine? Well. 2019 has decided to start off with a BANG, including electrical problems, computer problems, way too many birthday parties, and some very tight deadlines. Oh, and two weddings and two trips just during the first semester. It's gonna be one hell of a year.

Anyway, I only discovered the snowflake challenge after it had already started and I was all sad that I'd missed it and then I realized that I could just do it whenever I wanted. THERE ARE NO RULES. I'm gonna be all rebellious this year because why not. It's being rebellious with me.

So I'm just gonna go ahead and start from the beginning:


Day 1: In your own space, talk about your Happy Place—the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Well. 2018 was a rough year and I have to say that finding my Happy Place has become sooooo hard. But I remember what it feels like! I was talking to Lum the other day about this, about how I'm most happy when I'm present and connected. I guess that's true for most people. I'll have these random moments of just noticing how beautiful the world around me is, or how amazing it is that I can look at things and that my brain can interpret what my eyes are sending and create this picture in my mind. I know, it sounds all silly, but this happens quite often, just wonder at the world and the universe and everything we've created. I feel like kids do it right, everything is AMAZING. I try to keep that mentality as much as I can.

As for specific things I do that make me happy, I'd say hanging out with friends is a big one. Creating things makes me happy also, but only after it makes me stressed and tense and anxious first, so that one's a bit complicated. I like being in my house, on my sofa, in my living room. Reading is a big one, I get transported to whole different worlds. Same for movies and TV. In fact, movies and TV are HUGE as far as Happy Places go. 

But the truth is that all these things can make me happy or make me anxious and stressed, it really depends on how I am that day. Living with depression is a weird thing where sometimes my Happy Place is transformed into a pit of anxiety, or I KNOW that if I do this one thing I'll feel better but I just can't gather enough strength to do it. Some days everything is amazing and the world is beautiful, and then others everything is crap. And there might not actually have been anything different between the two days. The only thing that's different is ME.

So yeah. Still trying to figure out how to deal with myself. But hey, the good days are always REALLY good. I just want there to be more of them.