Happy New Year!
Dec. 30th, 2005 10:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maristuHi! I'm back! Hope everyone had a great Christmas/Hannukah/Holiday of choice :) I haven't been around much, and I have no excuse. I wasn't working this week. I had absolutely nothing to do. But then, that's just it. For the first time in months, maybe even years, I had a full week to myself. So what did I do? I stayed home. I watched TV. I slept A LOT. I read books and magazines, walked in the park, took my blanket that's too big to wash at home to the laundromat, dyed and cut my hair. I just didn't feel inspired to post. I suck at this LJ thing, really. But hey, I was inspired today, and here I am! Yay! *g*
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I started looking for apartments this week (oh yeah, another thing I was doing this week!). I fell in love with the very first one I saw. It's beautiful, big, lots of space, lots of potential. I'll have to tear it down and redo all the electrical wiring and the plumbing, but that's okay. I'm still looking, though. Hopefully, by next month I'll be the proud owner of an apartment. I'll have an apartment in my name. This feels just amazing!
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Remember the ex-boyfriend from 10 years ago, the one that started calling me and leaving me messages every day for months? Well, he called me today. At 8:15 in the morning. ON MY BREAK. I was going to sleep late today. I was going to sleep at least 2 more hours, maybe even three. And I just don't sleep again after I'm awake.
God, you have no idea how angry I was. I don't even remember much of what I said to him, I was still half asleep. I was actually managing to be nice until he mentioned that he called me at home because I won't answer him on the cell. WTF? Can't he get a clue???
I lost my poise. Seriously, I have never spoken to anyone that way. I told him that people don't just come back into someone's life 10 years later and DEMAND to be let in and become best friends again. What people normally do is call once, maybe twice, SOMETIMES even three times. If the person doesn't respond, then you just let it be. What you DON'T do is call the person Every. Single. Day. Email them Every. Single. Day. Send them text messages on the phone. And call them at home at 8:15 in the morning. And how the hell did he get my home number anyway???
I think he got it now. And you know what the weird thing is? I have nothing against him. I mean, I probably wouldn't date him again, but we could be friends. I just needed a little space, some time to wrap my mind around what meeting him again could possibly mean. He's so very much linked to my ex-husband (they were best friends at one time, and kind of stopped talking to each other because of me. So very Dawson's Creek, I know). I just wasn't ready to deal with that at the time.
But having him call and email and text-message me for the past months just got me annoyed, then angry, and maybe a little scared. I mean, the guy was one step away from stalking. It just creeped me out. I just wish I could understand what was going on in his head. He told me he was recently divorced. Did he think he could just hook up with me again, out of the blue? This is just way too weird.
He said he got it, and he won't call again. Hopefully, he wasn't lying.
And yet, I feel a little guilty :P
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Time
"Whoever had the idea of cutting time up in slices, which we call years, was a genious. He industrialized hope, making it work to the limit of exhaustion. Twelve months are enough for any human being to get tired and give in. Then comes the miracle of renewal and everything starts over again, with another number and another will to believe that from now on, everything will be different."
Carlos Drummond de Andrade
Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that 2006 brings us everything we want and need, our hopes and dreams, lots of peace, love, health and money :)
I started looking for apartments this week (oh yeah, another thing I was doing this week!). I fell in love with the very first one I saw. It's beautiful, big, lots of space, lots of potential. I'll have to tear it down and redo all the electrical wiring and the plumbing, but that's okay. I'm still looking, though. Hopefully, by next month I'll be the proud owner of an apartment. I'll have an apartment in my name. This feels just amazing!
Remember the ex-boyfriend from 10 years ago, the one that started calling me and leaving me messages every day for months? Well, he called me today. At 8:15 in the morning. ON MY BREAK. I was going to sleep late today. I was going to sleep at least 2 more hours, maybe even three. And I just don't sleep again after I'm awake.
God, you have no idea how angry I was. I don't even remember much of what I said to him, I was still half asleep. I was actually managing to be nice until he mentioned that he called me at home because I won't answer him on the cell. WTF? Can't he get a clue???
I lost my poise. Seriously, I have never spoken to anyone that way. I told him that people don't just come back into someone's life 10 years later and DEMAND to be let in and become best friends again. What people normally do is call once, maybe twice, SOMETIMES even three times. If the person doesn't respond, then you just let it be. What you DON'T do is call the person Every. Single. Day. Email them Every. Single. Day. Send them text messages on the phone. And call them at home at 8:15 in the morning. And how the hell did he get my home number anyway???
I think he got it now. And you know what the weird thing is? I have nothing against him. I mean, I probably wouldn't date him again, but we could be friends. I just needed a little space, some time to wrap my mind around what meeting him again could possibly mean. He's so very much linked to my ex-husband (they were best friends at one time, and kind of stopped talking to each other because of me. So very Dawson's Creek, I know). I just wasn't ready to deal with that at the time.
But having him call and email and text-message me for the past months just got me annoyed, then angry, and maybe a little scared. I mean, the guy was one step away from stalking. It just creeped me out. I just wish I could understand what was going on in his head. He told me he was recently divorced. Did he think he could just hook up with me again, out of the blue? This is just way too weird.
He said he got it, and he won't call again. Hopefully, he wasn't lying.
And yet, I feel a little guilty :P
"Whoever had the idea of cutting time up in slices, which we call years, was a genious. He industrialized hope, making it work to the limit of exhaustion. Twelve months are enough for any human being to get tired and give in. Then comes the miracle of renewal and everything starts over again, with another number and another will to believe that from now on, everything will be different."
Carlos Drummond de Andrade
Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that 2006 brings us everything we want and need, our hopes and dreams, lots of peace, love, health and money :)
