Break down
Jan. 24th, 2003 11:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
maristu*sob*
I can't do this. I just can't.
It's not possible to keep up with three mailing lists (one of which sends a total of 100 posts a *day*), read my entire friends list here at LJ, beta for the people I promised I'd beta, read all the great fanfic and watch all the great videos in three different fandoms, develop all the programs I said I'd develop (just got myself into another one-- I don't understand how this happened, I was sitting quietly in my corner and the next minute my hands had written an email volunteering), write all the stuff I want to write in my journal and, you know, work. And have a life. And all that *other* stuff that exists offline.
Yup. This is me, having a breakdown.
So. I put all my lists on digest, which doesn't *really* change anything, since I still read all the emails, except that I don't get depressed when I see the "You have 253 unread emails" on my mailbox. I've made a list of the things that I still need to do, so that at the very least I can keep organized. And I unfriended a few people. Sorry, guys, but really, there was no way I could keep up. I might unfriend a few more today, because I see absolutely *no* difference on the length of my friends page...
On other (not so good) news, my old hard drive has apparently died. This time it was *my* hard drive, not my mom's. All my Premiere projects? Gone. All my Smallville eps? Also gone. All my mp3s, installed programs, downloaded fanfics, *everything*? GONE.
I think I'll go cry in a corner now...
But before I go...
Although your first name of Mariana has created an expressive, fun-loving nature, it has not produced the qualities necessary for a full and complete life. You have always been a happy person, and, desiring to see others happy as well, you strive to inspire others, which you do most effectively through an engaging sense of humour. You are fond of surprises and are quick to respond to spontaneous invitations which promise a good time, particularly when they relieve you of a boring task. Your dislike for monotony and routine, often means that you do not finish the things you start. A natural rhythm, a sense of colour harmony, and creative ability contribute to a flair for composition and artistic and musical expression. Expression comes easily to you; in fact, you should learn to control it and discipline your expression. You are not practical where money matters are concerned, your theory being that money is there to be spent. You are kind and generous, and will fill a need when you see it; at times, others take advantage of your generosity. The most serious drawback of the influence of this name is in the strong emotional feelings that it produces, which are difficult to control and create lack of stability in your thinking or in your affairs. A craving for sweet foods could cause skin conditions or liver problems. You would find it difficult to control your desires and could over-indulge in your pleasures.
That's eerily accurate. Scary. Rhi, you'd better choose wee!Rhi's name carefully :)
I can't do this. I just can't.
It's not possible to keep up with three mailing lists (one of which sends a total of 100 posts a *day*), read my entire friends list here at LJ, beta for the people I promised I'd beta, read all the great fanfic and watch all the great videos in three different fandoms, develop all the programs I said I'd develop (just got myself into another one-- I don't understand how this happened, I was sitting quietly in my corner and the next minute my hands had written an email volunteering), write all the stuff I want to write in my journal and, you know, work. And have a life. And all that *other* stuff that exists offline.
Yup. This is me, having a breakdown.
So. I put all my lists on digest, which doesn't *really* change anything, since I still read all the emails, except that I don't get depressed when I see the "You have 253 unread emails" on my mailbox. I've made a list of the things that I still need to do, so that at the very least I can keep organized. And I unfriended a few people. Sorry, guys, but really, there was no way I could keep up. I might unfriend a few more today, because I see absolutely *no* difference on the length of my friends page...
On other (not so good) news, my old hard drive has apparently died. This time it was *my* hard drive, not my mom's. All my Premiere projects? Gone. All my Smallville eps? Also gone. All my mp3s, installed programs, downloaded fanfics, *everything*? GONE.
I think I'll go cry in a corner now...
But before I go...
Although your first name of Mariana has created an expressive, fun-loving nature, it has not produced the qualities necessary for a full and complete life. You have always been a happy person, and, desiring to see others happy as well, you strive to inspire others, which you do most effectively through an engaging sense of humour. You are fond of surprises and are quick to respond to spontaneous invitations which promise a good time, particularly when they relieve you of a boring task. Your dislike for monotony and routine, often means that you do not finish the things you start. A natural rhythm, a sense of colour harmony, and creative ability contribute to a flair for composition and artistic and musical expression. Expression comes easily to you; in fact, you should learn to control it and discipline your expression. You are not practical where money matters are concerned, your theory being that money is there to be spent. You are kind and generous, and will fill a need when you see it; at times, others take advantage of your generosity. The most serious drawback of the influence of this name is in the strong emotional feelings that it produces, which are difficult to control and create lack of stability in your thinking or in your affairs. A craving for sweet foods could cause skin conditions or liver problems. You would find it difficult to control your desires and could over-indulge in your pleasures.
That's eerily accurate. Scary. Rhi, you'd better choose wee!Rhi's name carefully :)
