After a While

For all my on-line friends... For some reason, this poem always helped me when I was down. It doesn't necessarily make me happy, but... I don't know, it just helps.

After a While
by Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while, you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads
On today, because tomorrow's ground
Is too uncertain for plans and futures have
A way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate
Your soul instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth.
And you learn and learn...
with every goodbye you learn.

Fandom woes...

Just a quick note, before I go out with my mom for a stroll. It's a lovely day, and the sunset here is beautiful!

I feel so out of fandom lately. With all the computer trouble, I haven't been able to keep up at all. I'm way behind on LJ, I haven't read any fic or watched any vids in ages, and I haven't downloaded the last two eps of Smallville... *sigh*

I have, however, watched "Chamber of Secrets", and loved it. It seemed a bit slow at times, mostly because of the editing that left a lot of pauses in the dialogues (either that or I'm getting way too accustomed to Gilmore Girls dialogue speed). But other than that, it was lovely. Will possibly have more to say about this later, when I'm less pressed for time.

And, a quiz! Apparently, I'm not evil. I just pretend to be...

Whine whine whine...

I told y'all I'd stop whining, right? And you *believed* me??

Okay, okay, I'll make this short and simple: Real Life? Sucks. Money (or lack thereof)? Also sucks. Depressed husband who is seriously considering becoming a housewife (or househusband, as is the case)? Yup, sucks. I'll take on-line life anytime...

On another note, I've been wondering about something, maybe y'all can enlighten me. Fic that has no pairing (is this right?) is called "gen". Fic that has a heterossexual pairing is called "het". So why isn't fic that has a homossexual pairing called, I don't know, "ho"? "Homo"? "Homossexual pairing"? Or whatever. Is there something wrong with the word?

Yeah, yeah, I'm just bitching. Don't mind me. I'll go update my recs page now. I need to find and reread some good homossexual fic to lift my mood *g*