Alone

My husband's moved out yesterday. We weren't doing very well for a long time, but I'm still surprised this happened. I didn't want it to happen... Although I'm the one who brought the subject up, who wanted to analyse our relationship. I'm the one who wasn't happy. But I didn't want him to leave. I wanted couple's therapy or something.

I just got an email from him saying that he's packed most of his clothes, but has to go back for more some other day. Asking if he can keep the laptop. I feel like crying, except I don't have a shoulder to cry on. Everyone thinks I'm fine. I thought I was fine...

I don't know what to do now.