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I just discovered that LJ works at my work! I'm still not sure if this is a good or a bad thing... Probably a good thing. We'll see.

I've been sick for the past couple of days... I spiked a fever on Wednesday, which didn't go down until Saturday morning. No one knows what it was. The general diagnosis is "virus". Since it's gone now and I have absolutely no symptoms, I'm tending to believe that this time they were probably right. Either that or the Hep A & B shots I got had some weirdass side effects that no one warned me about.

Still, this got me to thinking. What am I gonna do about doctors in the US? I mean, I'm sure you guys have tons of great doctors :) It's just that I'm so used to my own doctors here. Plus, I'm all about the alternative medicine (maybe I should move to LA!). My doctor is an actual doctor (she has her MD and everything), but she's also a fitotherapist (I don't know if that's the actual word in english), which basically means she treats people with herb-based chinese medicine and homeopathic stuff. She's also an acupuncturist, and does all that stuff with the suction cups that I don't know the name. And she's AWESOME. Seriously. I remember the first time I had an appointment with her, I had this incredibly painful recurring ear infection, which I'd treated before with antibiotics (and yes, I did follow the doctor's instructions to the T), and had come back with a vengeance. She felt my heartbeat in a few different places on my wrist and said it was a problem with my kidneys that was reflecting in my ears. She did an acupuncture session which lessened the pain considerably, and then told me to take some chinese herbal medicine and come back in a week. I was pain-free in 2 days, and haven't had any ear problems since. That was 5 years ago. Amazing.

So yeah, I do believe this stuff works, or at least it works for me. And the cool thing is, if I have something really serious that has to be worked out quickly, like a really strong UTI (which I'm prone to having at least once a year), she has no problem with prescribing antibiotics. Plus she's the only doctor I have that'll answer the phone in the middle of a holiday (like this past Thursday, when my fever was really high). I don't know what I'll do without her...

I have this idea that alternative medicine isn't really all that big in the US. Is this right?
maristu: (euphoria)
So... I actually managed to get into graduate school. Apparently the GRE scores were not only good enough, but were good enough to get me a scholarship for my first year. Cool :) Now I just have to figure out what to do for money during my second year.

That means I'm actually moving to the US. For two years. It's a completely different situation than last year, when everything was temporary and I didn't actually know how long I was going to stay. Now I have to actually rent out my beautiful renovated apartment (it still pains me, but I'll get over it). I have to pack everything I own and find people to store them for me for the next two years (I think I'll have no trouble trying to find someone to store my CD and DVD collections...). I have to find someway to send money from Brazil to the US (what's this Western Union thingy? I'll have to check it out). I have to stock up on my bcp for the next 2 years. And so many other things I still haven't thought about. But I'm very very excited. I'm just waiting for my work to allow me to go (it's a sort of a sabatical thingy). If everything goes smoothly, I'll be in DC late July! Just in time for the end of summer! Yay!

And *then*, when I actually get there, I have to figure out a whole bunch of stuff that I just don't understand. First, what's this about a credit history? And can I get a credit card at all? A lot of stores only accept american based credit cards (like How can I get a TiVo and how does it work? :) So yeah, a lot of adapting to do... There's an international student orientation that'll probably cover all the practicall stuff (banking and living and everything else), but probably not the TiVo part ;)

On other news... I *finally* stopped smoking. Seriously. I've been smoke-free for exactly 1 week, four days, 6 hours and 57 minutes. I know it's not much, but it sure *feels* like a loooooong time for me. I've fallen off the wagon a few times, and then got back on again, and then fell off, and so on and so forth... The last time I fell off the wagon, I'd been smoke-free for 4 days and bummed a Marlboro from someone at my work. Oh. My. God. It tasted AWFUL. And then my throat started scratching after about 3 drags, and then my lungs actually began to *hurt*. That was 10 days ago :) Here's hoping this time it lasts...

As for fandom, I haven't been watching much of anything. Well, there's the usual: Lost (are they ever going to get anywhere??), Terminator (so far, I'm liking it so so, it's just started here in Brazil, and I don't know if it's still on in the States). Oh, and American Idol! David Cook!!! I so rooted for him the entire season, and I just couldn't wait to see the finale (it'll only show here in Brazil next week), so I downloaded it on Thursday. Good think I'm home with the flu ;) Gosh, I love him to bits. He's just soooo cute and sexy and rough in all the right places and... and... you get the idea. Love him to death, and have managed to download most of the songs from the show. Now, I'd pay iTunes to download the songs, but they WON'T ACCEPT MY CREDIT CARDS. It doesn't matter if it's international, platinum, whatever. So I have no other option but downloading from the 'net. If y'all could help me, here's what I still haven't found and would LOVE to have (studio versions):

All I Really Need Is You
Baba O'Rilley
The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face (I still can't believe how beautifully he did this)
Dare You To Move
I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
The World I Know

Mostly I find the live versions, but they're just too short (although I have most of them too, of course), and I actually like his arrangements. So yeah, if y'all have any of those in studio versions, or if you could point me to where I can find them, I'd really appreciate it! :)

First step

Nov. 20th, 2007 01:19 am
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Did I mention that I'm trying to get into a graduate course here in the States? Well, I am... I want to study documentary filmmaking. So today I took my GRE exam. I got 700 on the quantitative and 680 on the verbal.

So I wanted to know from you guys who have already done this, is this a good score? Because I have no idea what the scores actually mean. There's no information as to the minimum I have to get in order to get in the schools I'm looking into (Emerson College in Boston, Temple University in Philadelphia, American University here in DC and Savannah College).

Also, do you guys have any tips on writing my essay? And who to ask for recommendation letters?

This is so completely different from what we have in Brazil that I'm feeling kind of lost... But hopefully I'll be able to come back to the States next year! Yay! :)

My band

Oct. 6th, 2007 01:18 am
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First off, sorry if I sounded sour in my last post. I was having a bad day, but really, I have nothing to complain about, I'm happy and studying and playing my heart out, and am exactly where I'm supposed to be. Which is actually my new philosophy in life. No matter how much you plan everything out, if your plan doesn't take you to where you're supposed to be, it just won't work. Something will happen to take you down your proper path, and that something might be subtle or might feel like a big huge anvil on your head (which has been the case these past few years). But really, it's been an amazing and interesting ride so far, and I'm pretty sure it's just getting started! :)

If you want to check out the band, here's the web site:

And if you're passing through, come and watch us!

Edit: Remembered how to use lj-cut. Yay for me!
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Hi!! Ok, I don't think anyone remembers me anymore... Heck, it's been years, I guess. But hey, I just wanted to drop a word to you guys and tell you that I'm living in Washington, DC! Well, only for a few months, but still. I'm thinking of getting a masters degree next year, so maybe I'll be here longer. Also, I'm taking a video editing class, and might be coming back to vidding, although I have no idea what's been going on with the vidding community in these last couple of years...

I don't know if I'll be good about posting. Probably not... Lately I haven't even answered many of my emails. So much has happened... I got my new apartment completely remodelled, but never actually got to live in it, since my stepdad passed away a month after I'd moved out of my parent's house, and so I moved back in to help her through her grief. And then the opportunity arrived to come here, study, and put together an all-woman percussion band in Washington, DC. So I came... And seriously, I have no plans at all for my life anymore. Things just don't work out according to plans, in my experience, so I just gave up planning altogether.

So yeah, I'm back. And I'm rambling, so I'll stop now. If anyone reads this, give me an update? I really miss you guys and want to know what's been going on...

Oh, and this is my band's website:
maristu: (different person)
Aw damn. I feel like hell. I just had the most amazing week of my life, and today I feel like hell. I'm down and depressed and I don't know what to think. And I really don't feel like talking about it, cause then I feel like crying, and I don't wanna. Bah.

And y'all probably don't understand a word of what I just said. Sorry...

So... I put up the floor plans to the apartment at my site. They're here. The first one is the original plan (minus the graffiti'd wall, which wasn't there in the first place), and the second is what we're going to do. I'd go into details, but... Gah. Sorry. Maybe babelfishing it will help? I dunno...



Mar. 13th, 2006 08:08 pm
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I put up pictures of the wall after the grafiti'ing (comments are in Portuguese, though you can get the picture from the, um, pictures *g*). The party was lots of fun, the apartment is still in one piece (other than the painted wall, of course), and I'm still waiting for the architect to show me the project so that I can aprove it and start the remodelling. And I'm really really tired... But it was SO worth it!

ETA: I'm the one with short hair and a green t-shirt that says "Brasil 10" on it :)

The Wall

Mar. 10th, 2006 05:51 pm
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Okay, real quick update here cause I'm late for my swim class...

1. I've kind of moved to my mom's. I say "kind of" because most of my stuff is still at my old apartment. I have one month to vacate it, so I'm puttin everything in boxes and selling the furniture and hopefully I'll be able to get all that done in time.

2. I've discovered that I have a whole lot of junk. It's amazing how many boxes I already have, and there's still so much stuff left over! I wonder if I'll be able to throw most of it away, or donate.

3. I have a website! There's nothing in there yet (except for the layout), and it's all in portuguese, but still. It's there! That's where I'm going to be putting up the pictures of the new apartment, the remodelling, etc.

4. I have no internet access at my mom's. Well, she has access on her computer, but there's no cable in my room, so I can't connect my computer. So my process for updating the site is: I create all the stuff in my computer (which has photoshop and dreamweaver and everything else I need), then I put it all on my iPod, then I download it on my mom's computer, then I ftp it up to my site. Let's hope it works!

5. This weekend I'm having a "breaking of the wall" party at the new place. Where there will not actually be breaking, but rather graffiti'ing of said wall, which will be demolished at a later time for the remodelling. I'm planning on giving everyone a piece of the wall later, a la Berlin Wall *g*

Well, that's about it! I haven't been around much, mostly because I can't access LJ from my work, so I have to use my mom's computer, which is rarely available. Anyway, when I have the pictures of the party, I'll post them on the site and let y'all know!
maristu: (play)
Hi everybody! Yes, I know I've been away for a looooong time, but I have a good excuse... I just bought my first apartment! Yay!

So, yeah, I've been kind of going crazy trying to work out a budget for the remodelling and the furniture and... Gah. It's amazing how much information I'm able to keep inside my head. But it's a whole lot of fun, and I'm definitely not complaining! :)

So yeah, I might be AWOL for a while. I'll try not to be, though. I'm thinking of posting about the remodelling, maybe posting some pictures and stuff. Don't know if anyone'll be interested, but it's a good way to keep a record of what I'm doing. The work won't start until next month, though, we're still working out what to do.

So yeah, a whole lot of planning going on! And I'm really really happy!

On vidding news, I finished remastering Bohemian Rhapsody, and am in the process of figuring out how to get it to a reasonable size to put up on a site somewhere. For some reason, when I try to export as a DivX in Premiere, the resulting vid comes out all blurry and full of little colored squares. Anyone know what's wrong?
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Hi! I'm back! Hope everyone had a great Christmas/Hannukah/Holiday of choice :) I haven't been around much, and I have no excuse. I wasn't working this week. I had absolutely nothing to do. But then, that's just it. For the first time in months, maybe even years, I had a full week to myself. So what did I do? I stayed home. I watched TV. I slept A LOT. I read books and magazines, walked in the park, took my blanket that's too big to wash at home to the laundromat, dyed and cut my hair. I just didn't feel inspired to post. I suck at this LJ thing, really. But hey, I was inspired today, and here I am! Yay! *g*


I started looking for apartments this week (oh yeah, another thing I was doing this week!). I fell in love with the very first one I saw. It's beautiful, big, lots of space, lots of potential. I'll have to tear it down and redo all the electrical wiring and the plumbing, but that's okay. I'm still looking, though. Hopefully, by next month I'll be the proud owner of an apartment. I'll have an apartment in my name. This feels just amazing!


Remember the ex-boyfriend from 10 years ago, the one that started calling me and leaving me messages every day for months? Well, he called me today. At 8:15 in the morning. ON MY BREAK. I was going to sleep late today. I was going to sleep at least 2 more hours, maybe even three. And I just don't sleep again after I'm awake.

God, you have no idea how angry I was. I don't even remember much of what I said to him, I was still half asleep. I was actually managing to be nice until he mentioned that he called me at home because I won't answer him on the cell. WTF? Can't he get a clue???

I lost my poise. Seriously, I have never spoken to anyone that way. I told him that people don't just come back into someone's life 10 years later and DEMAND to be let in and become best friends again. What people normally do is call once, maybe twice, SOMETIMES even three times. If the person doesn't respond, then you just let it be. What you DON'T do is call the person Every. Single. Day. Email them Every. Single. Day. Send them text messages on the phone. And call them at home at 8:15 in the morning. And how the hell did he get my home number anyway???

I think he got it now. And you know what the weird thing is? I have nothing against him. I mean, I probably wouldn't date him again, but we could be friends. I just needed a little space, some time to wrap my mind around what meeting him again could possibly mean. He's so very much linked to my ex-husband (they were best friends at one time, and kind of stopped talking to each other because of me. So very Dawson's Creek, I know). I just wasn't ready to deal with that at the time.

But having him call and email and text-message me for the past months just got me annoyed, then angry, and maybe a little scared. I mean, the guy was one step away from stalking. It just creeped me out. I just wish I could understand what was going on in his head. He told me he was recently divorced. Did he think he could just hook up with me again, out of the blue? This is just way too weird.

He said he got it, and he won't call again. Hopefully, he wasn't lying.

And yet, I feel a little guilty :P



"Whoever had the idea of cutting time up in slices, which we call years, was a genious. He industrialized hope, making it work to the limit of exhaustion. Twelve months are enough for any human being to get tired and give in. Then comes the miracle of renewal and everything starts over again, with another number and another will to believe that from now on, everything will be different."

Carlos Drummond de Andrade

Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that 2006 brings us everything we want and need, our hopes and dreams, lots of peace, love, health and money :)


Dec. 6th, 2005 08:16 pm
maristu: (sandwich)
You know what sucks? Food poisoning. I got three days off work, and I feel too lousy to sit up at the computer for more than 15 minutes, because then my stomach starts to hurt. I'm sick of television, and my neck hurts from reading in bed. Plus, the only thing I can eat is rice. Fun.

Stay away from tuna fish, people. Seriously.

ETA: Ironically, my character in The Sims also got food poisoning... Heh.
maristu: (Default)
10 things that make me frustrated at the moment:

1. Having a brand new 20G iPod staring at me, and not having the time to actually play with it. It's so *shiny*.
2. Way too many ideas for vidding.
3. A to-do list that keeps growing no matter how many items I scratch from it.
4. Having no internet at work, because someone forgot to renew the contract (and we're talking about the Senate here, people!)
5. Still having to go to work, because apparently they never forget to pay the energy bill. Darn.
6. The fact that my work is ridiculously busy at the end of the year, so that I can look forward to meetings at 3pm on Christmas Eve and early morning calls on Christmas day.
7. No time to practice the drums, or take photography classes, or any of the million other things I'd love to be doing.
8. Way too many end-of-the-year parties, so that weekends never feel like rest. And I really need to rest. I mean really. It's only Tuesday and I'm feeling like a train wreck.
9. No time to put up my Christmas decorations.
10. No time for beautifying. I need a manicure. And to pluck my eyebrows. And a massage. And a bubble bath. And about 24 hours of sleep.

So yeah. Time. Where can I buy some extra?
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Just got back from drums lessons. Yes, I'm playing the drums. After having tried the violin, the piano and the acoustic guitar (the last of which I still play for fun), I decided that drums was really my calling. And I'm having the time of my life! Granted, I suck at it, but I'm getting better every week, and it's just plain FUN. Today I spent almost thirty minutes just playing along to a rock playback with my teacher. So yeah. Much fun.

Nice thing about this is that now I listen to songs and really pay attention to the drums. It's interesting, because I used to do this a lot before, mostly for vidding, because I enjoy cutting to the beat and stuff. But now it's just intuitive, I listen to a song and the drums sound... louder, I guess.

So yeah. Other than that, I'm mostly just working. And fooling around with my computer, which is now EXACTLY the way I wanted it to be. Finally. So yay! for vidding :)
maristu: (God's sense of humor)
I'm very disappointed. Apparently, Serenity isn't coming out in theaters here in Brazil. It was supposed to come out today, but it got cancelled due to the low opening box office in the US. So... I'll have to wait til it comes out on DVD. And I won't get the chance to see it with the nice surround sound (although the one I have at home isn't really all that bad). But still.

And to top it off, yesterday I played in my first squash tournament. And lost miserably. My only consolation is that my practice partner won her game and then played the girl that played with me, and she lost too. So there. It's not that I suck, it's just that she played a whole lot better. At least that's my story, and I'm sticking to it *g*

Computer's almost ready to start vidding. Took a while to get it up and running again, but after a little research on the 'net I figured what was wrong with my HD and reinstalled everything (for the millionth time), and now everything seems to be working fine. I have a million bunnies in my head, I just have to pick one and get started. Yay!


Oct. 21st, 2005 12:00 pm
maristu: (big screaming deal)
I don't know why I have so much faith in people. They invariably disappoint me. But I just can't help myself. Maybe I'm just a masochist.

Yes, this is all there is to this post. Sorry.
maristu: (lips move when I think)
So... I went to the costume party yesterday. I had a little red riding hood costume made, curled my hair, put on my flamenco shoes (which are black, with small heels and ankle straps, and look very much like something that LRRH would wear, except that it has metal plates on the soles, which meant that I was clacking around the entire night), filled my little basket with red heart-shaped lollipops, and bravely went to a party where I would probably know no more than three people, one of them being my ex-boyfriend who dumped me for a pregnant ex-girlfriend. So yeah. I was predicting disaster. I did *not* expect it to go the way it went.

First off, my ex didn't go. So yay. I was worried I'd get drunk and make a scene, but I didn't really get the chance. I was oddly disappointed by that, though... Go figure.

Second, and most unexpected... I felt like an old lady walking into kindergarden. And let me tell you, that is hard to do while wearing a short red skirt, curly hair and sucking on a lollipop. But really, these kids were *young*. I figured everyone'd be around my age, since the guy that was throwing the party is 3 years older than me. But apparently, the two girls he was throwing the party with are much younger. Either that, or they have really really young friends. Everyone was around 21, and I'm not into younger guys *at all*. I know I *looked* like a 21-year-old (maybe even younger), and I did get hit on by a few of the guys, which is an ego booster if nothing else, but still...

The costumes were extremely fun, though... One of the guys that hit on me went dressed as a baby, complete with pacifier and geriatric diaper. I have to give him props for courage *g*. Another great costume was this really skiny guy, who put on black spandex shorts and a top, and roller blades. I had fun watching him trying to dance with those on... He actually managed okay :)

But the absolute best was a couple that was dressed as the Simpsons, complete with painted yellow faces and big round white eyes. She went as Homer, and put on filling in her white t-shirt and a yellow plastic wig thingy (hard to explain, but it was really cool). He went as Marge, complete with strapless green dress and a blue foam headpiece that always got caught in doorways... I felt very normal in my Little Red Riding Hood costume, although it was well made and looked really cute. Plus, the lollipops made for good conversation starters.

So, I didn't find my Big Bad Wolf. It was more like a bunch of little wolf puppies *g* I did have fun, though... More parties are coming up this weekend. Maybe those will end better.
maristu: (Default)
Hmmm... Remember how I mentioned that my ex-boyfriend from more than 10 years ago had suddenly reappeared? Well, apparently it's time for ALL my ex to rise up from the dead... I just got an email from my ex-husband. A long one, written at five in the morning. Huh.

I'm really really tired of this. I just want to start fresh, you know? Why can't the universe let me do that???

PS: Sorry I've been AWOL these past few days, my computer was in surgery. It is now fine. I'll try and catch up tonight.
maristu: (euphoria)
Just a quick run through, cause I don't have time to get into details on each topic...

  • Went to a day spa on Saturday. Words cannot express. I discovered that I have about 10 tension nodes on my back. I think I'll start getting massages once a week to see if I can get them smoothed out.
  • Watched Bewitched. Didn't like it much. Although I did get a little makeup bag out of it, so it wasn't a total loss.
  • Today I'll start a more drastic skin treatment, with a very strong drug. The treatment takes six months, and during those six months I can't go out in the sun without sunblock (there goes my summer), absolutely cannot get pregnant (wasn't planning on anyway), but the most drastic restriction: I CAN'T DRINK ALCOHOL. Six entire months without alcohol. I think I'm gonna cry.
  • I went out with two girl friends on Saturday, with every intention of getting myself wasted, as a sort of farewell party to alcohol. I had two drinks, the other girls started to get drunk, and I had to drive them home. Not what I was planning... I have to find friends who are stronger drinkers for this kind of thing.
  • You know who just reappeared out of nowhere? An ex. From BEFORE my marriage. I haven't seen this guy in TEN YEARS. I broke up with him because he had a habit of punching walls when he got angry, and I really didn't want him to mistake me for a wall someday. So. He's back, with a vengeance. He's been calling me nonstop these past few days. I haven't answered so far. I don't feel centered enough to deal with him right now. Although I *am* curious...
  • Speaking of blasts from the past, I'm starting to organize my Middle School's FIFTEEN YEAR reunion. Way cool. It was a really tiny school that I went to, so it feels like reuniting family... We have a meeting this Friday. I'm really looking forward to this *g*
  • I have a costume party next week. Sounds like fun, it's a friend of mine's birthday party, and he shares it with two other people who I don't know. So, there'll probably be tons of people to meet. Problem is, pregnant guy will be there. I actually thought about not going, but... What the hell. It's a big party. Maybe we won't bump into each other. I am going to have to think up a REALLY COOL costume. Something nice and sexy *g* Suggestions are much appreciated.

Yup, that's about it. Hectic life lately...
maristu: (lips move when I think)
You know what I *hate*? Everywhere I look, pregnant guy's there. I told you guys he's an old friend, one of the oldest ones I have. Well, that means we have about a million mutual friends, which are currently in the middle of organizing this major barbecue for a high school reunion. No one knew we were dating though (because we weren't for long enough to spread the news around). And the news of his parenthood have spread like fire in our circle of friends. *Everyone's* talking about it. I get on MSN and it's all, "did you hear about [pg]? He's gonna be a daddy! Do you know who the mom is? Oh, I'm so happy for him, he's going to be a great father."

Which is all very true, of course. It's almost impossible not to feel happy for him, he's so happy himself and it kind of rubs off. And he *will* be a good father. But I just can't stand to talk about it, and *him* anymore.

Then there's the fact that every time I get on MSN he's there, and we still haven't exchanged a word in 4 days. I'm fighting the urge to start up a conversation. It just feels so *weird* to have him there and not talk to him. We talked so much before... Then again, if he's not starting up the conversation, why should I? (I know, very mature. But hey, I never said I was *g*)


I was talking to one of my best (guy) friends about the whole situation, and we were laughing about how much it reads like one of those teen!angst shows, like BH90210 or Dawson's Creek. I told him that I didn't like that much drama in my life. He looked at me very seriously and said, "Of course you do. You love it. You don't feel alive unless you're in the middle of some drama." I then proceeded to punch him in the arm and tell him he was wrong, that I was nothing like that. He smiled and let it go, which gets me much more irritated than actually discussing something. He knows that, of course ;)

But then I got to thinking. He's right, you know (not that I'll ever admit it to *him*). Looking back at my dating patterns, I *do* love a drama. The only relationships I had that lasted for over three months were with a) a guy who was very emotionally unstable and liked to punch walls when he got angry; and b) my husband, who was my ex's best friend and we started dating about a month after I broke up with the ex (ooh, the teenage drama! We dated in hiding for three months, and they *still* had a fist fight over it when the ex found out.);

As for the other, shorter relationships, most of them were filled with angst. When they weren't, I made them up. Heh. I'm a strange, strange person.

Objective for this year:

1. Find myself a normal, non-angsty guy that I actually like;
2. Not get bored with him.
maristu: (volcano)
I need to find myself another physical activity. I already play squash (is that the name in english?) every tuesday, but it's definitely not enough to a) keep me from gaining weight; and b) venting pent-up frustrations. Actually, it's pretty good for when I'm mad, because I can just take it all out on the ball (and sometimes the walls too *g*). Problem is, it works out only my right arm, which means that I'm becoming disproportional.

So, I went to my old gym today to try to find something else I like. I could lift weights, and probably will, but that's just so *boring*, I end up giving up altogether. Which is why I need to find something interesting.

When I got there, they were having this class called "Tae Fight", which seemed interesting. Although I don't think I could ever do what the teacher demonstrates. It was kind of an aerobics class, except with punches and kicks, and mostly boxing movements (defense and foot movements too). Interesting. I do think I'm too much of a Yin person to actually punch and kick something (although I have felt like punching people lately). Plus, the girl that was in the class, the one that actually seemed to know what she was doing, was really BIG. I mean in a muscular way. Very masculine. I don't know if that's what I want.

So... Still looking. I have absolutely no idea of what I'm going to do. Suggestions?


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